Apparently, my post hasn't been posted so this is the edit that happened. idk when the last time was when I posted here but Sarah my developmental worker is finishing up with me, and the social services Hannah that I got attached to left finished working with me because her work has ended and she sign-posted me to the right people that's why. this is to be short what mainly happened and how I now have been feeling 3 days suicidal not caring to call Samaritans or even my stupid mental health team(I only spoke to them on Monday that's all and Tuesday). I don't get why it's always the people I love that leave me fucking behind and now idk what to do . because I don't accept change or behave well when things change for me. IDK why I'm such a stupid f********** dumb ass cow not lucky to be alive. I hate how my life ended in a nightmare and has gotten worse. And my suicidal feeling came back and nothing has been working. WHY, WHY WHY . at least My suicidal feeling aren't every day now that is good. why is it always the people I love tell me why? My life autistic life is so complicated. I feel stupid rn writing this.
