this week has started to get worse as I'm writing this i have a plan of doing suicide tomorrow. basically this is what happened. this morning i actually was feeling suicidal and went to college as i thought i will have a normal day near the end at 2pm i laughed at my friends dyslexic writing which i didn't mean , and then i started to feel suicidal and i called my mental health while i accidently wrote another bad email and my lecturer called me and said come and speak to me so i prayed and went and spoke to her didn't make me feel better even when i talked to my mental health team in college. i went to the library for 1h and then went and bought groceries for my family + a present for my f*********** father and all came out £22 something as if that wasn't bad my parents called and swore and said go and return or else so i did . got home and they screamed you're grounded for what well never mentioned this here . i did the most eviliest thing last month and cut my sisters doll and now my mom mend it and they would'nt even care if i did suicide today . now i need to restart my phone bye
