How do you live in a cruel world ?

You are correct, the world is full of selfish, thoughtless, aggressive people.  And it's no good anyone saying that the odds of something happening to you are so low compared to whatever, because that's not true.  I have had several physical assaults on me since childhood through into adulthood.  Unwarranted attacks where I did nothing to deserve it and actually in all cases was minding my own business.  There are a lot of people out there who will seek to hurt you.  NTs seem to be full of a desire to punish anyone they instinctively feel is different.  Just by being separate from the crowd, you make yourself a target.  Just by not partaking in gossip and underhandedness you become a threat to them and they seem to feel judged and will make you a target.  Just by not sharing the same opinion as the crowd, will make you a target.  Just by being oblivious to the mind-games that NTs play will make you a target.  Like chocolatebuttons I too want to just stay indoors and away from it all.

Only a few weeks ago I was verbally accosted in a car park by a car load of middle aged people with a young child with them, for not moving out of the way quickly enough whilst I got my autistic daughter out of the car.  I was subjected to a barrel of abuse and swearwords which shocked and upset me to the core for the rest of the day.

People will hate you for any reason they can come up with and in some cases invent a reason to attack you.

Those that aren't busy physically attacking you will verbally attack you or just ostracise and sideline you.

And if that fails, they will just make your life difficult and deliberately misunderstand your meaning.  At every level they will find a way to punish you for not being like them.

It's such a depressing existence, and yet there is a part of me that clings to hope.  Although that has taken a battering also, when recently, a place I thought I was protected from that sort of behaviour, an Aspie forum called Wrong Planet which most of you will have heard of, I was bullied and victimised by a small group of fellow Aspies and had my account terminated, despite not having broken site rules because that group had a couple of moderators in their pockets (all involved parties happened to be male other than myself).  That depressed me most of all, because I had this idealised view of an Aspie world where my fellow Aspies would be the answer to all the problems of this one.  Being an Aspie doesn't guarantee a decent personality sadly.  There are Aspie bullies, and lack of empathy can cause selfishness in Aspies too.  I score very low on empathy myself but I am a kind person and I will defend others, but standing your ground against some Aspies makes you a target for them too.

Human beings are so depressing to me that I hardly feel one of them.  This world has so much beauty in it, but it is spoiled by human nature.

You are correct, the world is full of selfish, thoughtless, aggressive people.  And it's no good anyone saying that the odds of something happening to you are so low compared to whatever, because that's not true.  I have had several physical assaults on me since childhood through into adulthood.  Unwarranted attacks where I did nothing to deserve it and actually in all cases was minding my own business.  There are a lot of people out there who will seek to hurt you.  NTs seem to be full of a desire to punish anyone they instinctively feel is different.  Just by being separate from the crowd, you make yourself a target.  Just by not partaking in gossip and underhandedness you become a threat to them and they seem to feel judged and will make you a target.  Just by not sharing the same opinion as the crowd, will make you a target.  Just by being oblivious to the mind-games that NTs play will make you a target.  Like chocolatebuttons I too want to just stay indoors and away from it all.

Only a few weeks ago I was verbally accosted in a car park by a car load of middle aged people with a young child with them, for not moving out of the way quickly enough whilst I got my autistic daughter out of the car.  I was subjected to a barrel of abuse and swearwords which shocked and upset me to the core for the rest of the day.

People will hate you for any reason they can come up with and in some cases invent a reason to attack you.

Those that aren't busy physically attacking you will verbally attack you or just ostracise and sideline you.

And if that fails, they will just make your life difficult and deliberately misunderstand your meaning.  At every level they will find a way to punish you for not being like them.

It's such a depressing existence, and yet there is a part of me that clings to hope.  Although that has taken a battering also, when recently, a place I thought I was protected from that sort of behaviour, an Aspie forum called Wrong Planet which most of you will have heard of, I was bullied and victimised by a small group of fellow Aspies and had my account terminated, despite not having broken site rules because that group had a couple of moderators in their pockets (all involved parties happened to be male other than myself).  That depressed me most of all, because I had this idealised view of an Aspie world where my fellow Aspies would be the answer to all the problems of this one.  Being an Aspie doesn't guarantee a decent personality sadly.  There are Aspie bullies, and lack of empathy can cause selfishness in Aspies too.  I score very low on empathy myself but I am a kind person and I will defend others, but standing your ground against some Aspies makes you a target for them too.

Human beings are so depressing to me that I hardly feel one of them.  This world has so much beauty in it, but it is spoiled by human nature.