Hello,
I’m having a really hard time with loneliness at the moment and I really don’t know what to do. I’m at university but because I don’t socialise, I don’t have any real friends. I am working on trying to socialise but the longer I’m alone, the harder it is to talk to people.
For example, I haven’t had any human contact today and when one of my housemates finally came home, although I was eagerly waiting for someone to come home all day just so I could see someone, by the time she arrived I was too nervous and exhausted from feeling lonely that I just sat in my room listening to her rustling around.
It’s been like this for months now and it’s gradually getting worse and worse. I really have a hard time socialising. Its hard because socialising terrifies me but I want to make friends so badly. Right now I struggle to even reply to people on message. I even attended my local NAS group but just sat there in terrified silence!
I think it’s because of the loneliness that my autistic inertia has become particularly bad in the last few weeks. I struggle to do the tiniest of tasks- it takes hours to even have a shower.
it feels like I’m in stuck in a loop here, has anyone had anything similar and how did you get out of it?
