Hi I was diagnosed with ASD in 2011 aged 12. Since diagnosed with anxiety, ME/CFS & depression. Love most animals espc cows I think they're lovely creatures.
I'm an adult now and I have no one in my life who understands me or the things I experience with my ASD and my health problems. My family keep trying to talk to me and include me in family get togethers and they take me out in to town even though they know how it affects me. I'm tired of this and of all the struggles have to face every day. I've spoken to my doctor and I am on a waiting list to see a therapist now but I don't think he or she will understand what it's like to have ASD and my health problems. No one ever understands. My doctor said she did but I know she didn't. It just feels so lonely being like this. I can't make eye contact. I can't bring myself to go out and engage with others, even my family. There's always an awkward atmosphere. I can only wash a few minutes because my skin is so sensitive and I am at risk of falling asleep. Can't eat a lot and my eyes are sensitive to light. I'm sad because of this and I see my sisters who don't have my problems and they are both married and have children and jobs. I have very little, nothing like what they have. I'm in a wheelchair and my speech is rubbish I can't make sense of what I'm trying to say. My sisters kids seem to like me and happy to talk to me but they are the only ones.
I keep hoping it will get better but it never does. Every night I go to bed hoping tomorrow will be better. But so far it never has been.
