Published on 12, July, 2020
I honestly want to be dead, I think it would be easier. I cant cope with the pain of life anymore. Its too confusing and stressful, Im not made for this world
I cant cope with having to go to the job centre every week, trying to find a job, worrying about money, dealing with my sons autism and his constant hitting, screaming and demands of me as well as my own autism. I cant cope with my wifes messiness meaning the house is a constant sensory overload. I cant cope with the fear of the neighbours hearing my meltdowns and calling the police. Just smashed up a washing basket with my bare hands in a meltdown and now my hands are bleeding. Dont want to live anymore
I'm️ new here but I want you to know I care and am here for you. Happy to chat anytime you need to xx
I went through similar when I first had my daughter and spoke to Samaritans a couple of times, they were a big support. If you can maybe try and get some professional help see if they can give you a helper like a support nurse who can help you through things. I have one and she's a life saver.
But please look after yourself.
We care, we are here for you x