Suicidal thoughts

I noticed this morning when I was doing my work I had suicidal thoughts, no active plans just general suicide thoughts about my life and how worthless I am. I'm a burden to my family, I've no real friends as such and when I had the chance to be a mum I ruined everything and it cost me so much.

Do these thoughts mean anything do you think? Or do you think they are just a moment of negativity creeping in? I have to get back to my work now. I'm hoping busying myself will clear the thoughts as right now they are still here gnawing away at me.

If you feel comfortable saying about it I'd like to hear what you think is behind it.

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  • Our thoughts don't come from one place in our mind, they come from different patterns of thinking we have stored away from different periods in our life.  You can witness this if you want to do something but have thoughts of doubt, and suicidal thoughts are the same really, if its just thoughts and ideas but not real action.  Its different characters in our minds really, and if we let them play then they will, and autistic people can struggle to manage thoughts and feelings so more likely to happen.

    Its best to let the thoughts go, witness them, and choose not to agree with them - just ignoring them won't help much, you need to decide that part of you isn't helpful and focus on the parts that are.  Keeping busy can help, but thinking more healthily will help more, do both, and both at the same time if possible.  Plenty of autistic people talk about these things, and many without autism, its a human thing so try and feel ok about it.

    Try not to catastrophise as that will feed anxiety and suicidal thinking, best to focus on the present - its about developing a healthy mindsight, and taking control of who you are and what you do and want to do,.

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  • Our thoughts don't come from one place in our mind, they come from different patterns of thinking we have stored away from different periods in our life.  You can witness this if you want to do something but have thoughts of doubt, and suicidal thoughts are the same really, if its just thoughts and ideas but not real action.  Its different characters in our minds really, and if we let them play then they will, and autistic people can struggle to manage thoughts and feelings so more likely to happen.

    Its best to let the thoughts go, witness them, and choose not to agree with them - just ignoring them won't help much, you need to decide that part of you isn't helpful and focus on the parts that are.  Keeping busy can help, but thinking more healthily will help more, do both, and both at the same time if possible.  Plenty of autistic people talk about these things, and many without autism, its a human thing so try and feel ok about it.

    Try not to catastrophise as that will feed anxiety and suicidal thinking, best to focus on the present - its about developing a healthy mindsight, and taking control of who you are and what you do and want to do,.

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