Relaxing makes me ill

I don't think I know how to relax. I don't know that I've ever been relaxed. I have been very stressed for a long time. There's no one big obvious cause right now. But it has built to a level where its causing me physical problems, like digestive issues, joint and muscle pain, headaches, palpitations, all of which can make me feel exhausted and mentally low. 

Doctors have recommended things over the years to try and help relax - exercise, meditation, mindfulness, yoga - and I have dutifully tried them all. But they either don't seem to work for me, like mindfulness, or they do start to work and I suddenly get ill. Exercise, for example, I've tried a few times. I start doing small amounts every morning and evening. I keep it very gentle and only progress slowly, and I started to feel the benefit. But then as soon as that happens I end up with extreme muscle pains all over, or a cluster of migraines, or sudden terrible stomach problems. Some of these are so bad they put me in bed for days, several has necessitated a trip to the doctor and one landed me in hospital. They can last days or weeks, but they all derail the exercising (or yoga or meditation etc) and make it difficult to return to it for some time afterwards. This cycle, of cause, only serves to make the stress and anxiety worse.

Has anyone else experienced this? Could this be related to ASD or ADHD? Any advice on what to do? How does everyone else manage to relax without getting ill?

Any advice or thoughts welcome. Thanks.

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  • I can empathise with you in this. i relax by going to a private studio/office i rent, closing the door, and making art, alone. i also meditate, alone. Surf, alone.

    The only things i can do to relax in the presence of others is listen to music, live or recorded, or my partner gives me a massage. But only her. Ive tried going to a professional, and I cant wait to leave.

    Have you tried forest bathing, swimming, sauna? Playing with animals? Cats also relax me.

    Basically you need to lose yourself in something you really love. But the motivation needs to be 100% from within you. what do you really really want? What do you love. Then do that, in a calm way, without distractions interrupting you.

    Meditation works, on a level i dont really understand tbh. But you have to commit to it for life, making it part of your routine. Try twice a week to start, then up it if you. Trust me. It wont happen overnight, but it will slowly change you psyche over time so you react to triggers differently, but observing them, instead of reacting to them.

    Buddhism has taught me a lot about finding the Middle Way in life. Hope you find some peace :)

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  • I can empathise with you in this. i relax by going to a private studio/office i rent, closing the door, and making art, alone. i also meditate, alone. Surf, alone.

    The only things i can do to relax in the presence of others is listen to music, live or recorded, or my partner gives me a massage. But only her. Ive tried going to a professional, and I cant wait to leave.

    Have you tried forest bathing, swimming, sauna? Playing with animals? Cats also relax me.

    Basically you need to lose yourself in something you really love. But the motivation needs to be 100% from within you. what do you really really want? What do you love. Then do that, in a calm way, without distractions interrupting you.

    Meditation works, on a level i dont really understand tbh. But you have to commit to it for life, making it part of your routine. Try twice a week to start, then up it if you. Trust me. It wont happen overnight, but it will slowly change you psyche over time so you react to triggers differently, but observing them, instead of reacting to them.

    Buddhism has taught me a lot about finding the Middle Way in life. Hope you find some peace :)

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