Advice for potentially undiagnosed

Hi everyone, first post here. I am after advice and knowledge from people here. 

So as I have gotten older I'm feeling a bit different to people and finding life a bit tricky. This has lead me to ask questions about myself, my actions and how I am interacting with the world. After having a bit of a breakdown in regards to an attempted relationship I found myself in therapy. This has caused me to ask even more questions. Part of me feels like I'm actually learning about who I am. 

So the big question im asking myself is, do I possible have some mild ASD/ADHD. I don't want to try and seek out a diagnosis at this point as I'm unsure if it's something else that looks similar.

I feel like this could be a long post but I want to keep it short. So what sort of things should I look out for in my life? I have low confidence and self esteem, don't really enjoy making eye contact, I don't seem to have any sensory sensitivities except disliking a lot of foods (fussy eater),Im not very interested in small talk but will talk all day about my hobbies if someone will listen, I'm uncertain what counts as stimming however I like to beatbox to myself and shake my leg a lot. Becoming more emotional sensitive as I get older is something that's confused me a bit.

One very important thing to consider is a smoke cigarettes and weed every day. Obviously this is not Ideal, but I have a sort of routine where I like to sit in the garden at night and play my favourite phone game with a smoke. Super relaxing time for me.

When I view myself as a youngster I can see traits of ADHD but as I have gotten older things seem a bit different. I don't want to intrude here if I'm actually an NT but at this stage I think I need to figure it out as it could impact me more and more if it is the case. I haven't planned what to write so sorry if it's disorganized.

Thanks for taking the time to read my post. I look forward to hearing from you. 

Parents
  • I have done some of the tests, found some them a little tricky to answer with the choices provided, trying to remember being a child and such. I also did an ADHD test, scored pretty high on that so I'd imagine that's more what's going on? As for the ASD, I did the aspie test as well. That's where I would put myself, and apparently there's a good indication. But I'm on the milder side it would seem, also about what I was thinking. I am aware that these aren't the most reliable indicators, being very unsure of myself (who I am and what I'm feeling, or not)  made it harder to answer some bits. But I can discuss this with my therapist, which would have been today had I not muddled the time up. 

    Thanks for directing me to those tests. I would have not bothered and assumed they were totally pointless. 

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  • I have done some of the tests, found some them a little tricky to answer with the choices provided, trying to remember being a child and such. I also did an ADHD test, scored pretty high on that so I'd imagine that's more what's going on? As for the ASD, I did the aspie test as well. That's where I would put myself, and apparently there's a good indication. But I'm on the milder side it would seem, also about what I was thinking. I am aware that these aren't the most reliable indicators, being very unsure of myself (who I am and what I'm feeling, or not)  made it harder to answer some bits. But I can discuss this with my therapist, which would have been today had I not muddled the time up. 

    Thanks for directing me to those tests. I would have not bothered and assumed they were totally pointless. 

Children
  • Hopefully the tests have put your mind at ease a little. Reading up on autism and ADHD (I have both as well) might help you understand yourself better in case you do have them. I think talking to your therapist is a good start. Together you can explore this and yourself. 

    It does sound like you may be on the spectrum so I think it could be a good idea to investigate it further if you want to.