Rudeness

I just come back from a walk and I'm feeling a bit down. As it's a nice day I decided a nice walk through the country would be nice, which it was until I saw this woman. Seeing her was fine but I felt myself getting anxious as she came over to me and I had a feeling she would talk to me which I'm not very good at. She did talk to me and asked where this village was which I knew and she asked for directions.

I'm not sure how you guys respond when this happens but my whole body tenses up, my throat gets tight, my stomach knots and I can't say a thing. I try to, I want to but my brain freezes and nothing happens. This woman looked at me sharply and then she sighed and told me I was rude and she walked off shaking her head at me and saying about my rudeness.

If only she knew the massive battle I was having with myself at the time and how much I really did want to answer her question.

Once again autism and anxiety won and made me look like a horrible person.

Feeling very down and disappointed now.

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  • hello holly, its not your fault, perhaps not the womans fault either, that happens to me aswell, just kind of feel "taken by surprise" even if preparing for it, perhaps due to that, as im going through scenarios in my head, which never happen and thus miss the simplest things.

    but dont be hard on yourself, i do that too when i get like that, kind of acts as a reminder of things, but its ok, it happens, not your fault alright?

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  • hello holly, its not your fault, perhaps not the womans fault either, that happens to me aswell, just kind of feel "taken by surprise" even if preparing for it, perhaps due to that, as im going through scenarios in my head, which never happen and thus miss the simplest things.

    but dont be hard on yourself, i do that too when i get like that, kind of acts as a reminder of things, but its ok, it happens, not your fault alright?

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