likely asd becoming more and more clear to me

the fact people never seem to be "drawn" to me

the outbursts and anger in busy places, plus confusion and various types of irritability 

being the "you cant take him anywhere" type of person

quite a lot is just more clear to me, especially having another crap experience out today.

i can't say realising it is helping in any way, just a fact of life i suppose.

now trying to get back to my "nice place" soon as possible to calm down

  • thanks, im calming now. bought some emergency raspberry mushroom sweets lol. you too

  • nobodies ever said they cant take me anywhere, but i do know im "that person" just from being aware if myself

    no idea why i keep going busy places, kind of hard not to when surviving (not living) in london, just glad i can go back to work tomorrow

    ugh, yeah, i have to hear people talking behind eachothers backs at work, i keep out of it even if they're slagging others off to me, but yeah, i dont like it, reminds me what people are like

    not that theyre personal attacks, just complaints about this and that, dont see the point in it so stay non-committal and say my opinion without trying to affect anything.

    gets me out the place im in anyway so thats the main thing. im going to say though, anybody ill there in future, to let me know as i wont go in if i can catch anything, been really bad for my mental state being stuck in this week

  • never seem to be "drawn" to me

    I would take it as a complement that regular clueless copycats keep their distance Stuck out tongue

    "you cant take him anywhere"

    and why do you continue going to busy places?

    I made a resolution to avoid people saying things like that, especially without that person present, they tend to continue being disrespectful, and havng them around is stressful and forces me into unwanted moral dillemas

    it's better to be alone and at peace

    but the only way to find someone who could become a good friend is by looking Stuck out tongue

    so I probe new people around me, e.g. new workmates, to find out their interests, their attitude towards morality, it happens among allistic to dislike small-talk, and deception, slowly, one probing quiestion a day,

    than months later you can test them if they are capable of having a dialog where  you disagree with them and they have to defend their point of view, if they make it through without getting angry with you or putting you on their black list there is hope

  • i was there 3 weeks ago. meltdown on the street. take care