I'm fine with being alone. I can't have a relationship because of two reasons. The first one is I know I'm very autistic. My teachers knew at school and I'm in the process of getting evaluated. The other reason is, when I was 13 or 14 years old, a man tried to kill me and smashed my head so badly, I was hospitalised. I was never the same after that attack. I'm very friendly, but simple.
Because of this, I can't have a normal relationship so I avoid them. I don't want to drag anyone into my mess.
To be honest, I avoid everyone now 
If I'm walking and see someone, I cross the road. I avoid eye contact and conversation. One of the cashiers at my local supermarket is too friendly with me, so I avoid her till now. I get very agitated by loud people, like when I'm on the bus and someone is talking loudly on their phone or to someone else.
