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Thank you all for just helping me.

Roy

Right, it’s now been 7 months since I came to this site and spilled my guts. To find out that I’m autistic at the age of 54 hit me like a hammer. I never knew why I was different and didn’t fit in anywhere. My life has been quite hard and difficult to navigate, I’m sure it strikes a chord with most of you. I have thought about taking my life since I was a child, I had got to the point of fully planning it and all the mechanics of it.

I still struggle a lot every day, but I can honestly say that I’ve not had a suicidal thought in the seven months. To find people who are the same as me and who I can communicate with when I want to has saved me. I thought I was the only person from my planet and no one else had survived.  I’m still processing 50+ years but it’s all starting to make sense and a lot of the struggles are not my fault, The anxiety never goes away but I’m trying.

I’m neurodiverse and not ashamed to say it. Thank you all for just being there. Take care.

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  • I can't personally take any of the credit as I've not been posting on here for long. However I've been lurking a lot longer and I agree that it is so helpful to have this forum where autistic people can connect. 

    Life has been difficult for me too and it helps even to just read some of the posts and to know that there are others who understand and are facing the same challenges. Nobody in the NT world seems to understand and I think you need to be autistic to really appreciate the struggles that we face on a daily basis.

    I have heard autism referred to as wrong planet syndrome and that is so apt.

  • in reply to Autonomistic

    Over the years I fantasied many times and in many version of me being alien stranded on this planet by accident waiting to be recued Stuck out tongue

  • in reply to Mariusz

    As a child, I would often say to my parents that my real parents will one day come and get me.

  • in reply to Roy

    I hoped my 'dad' isn't my dad actually, I've never said it to anybody, not even my sisters, I suspect they might think the same tough, When I was 15, and 2 older sisters 14 and 12 we started begging our mom to leave that guy, but unforunately she is in clutches of christianity and we had to continue the nightmare.

    My mom hides many secrets, so it still can be true, and happily ever after he drunk himself to death just before christmas few years ago, so my mom can have some peace at last.

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  • in reply to Roy

    I hoped my 'dad' isn't my dad actually, I've never said it to anybody, not even my sisters, I suspect they might think the same tough, When I was 15, and 2 older sisters 14 and 12 we started begging our mom to leave that guy, but unforunately she is in clutches of christianity and we had to continue the nightmare.

    My mom hides many secrets, so it still can be true, and happily ever after he drunk himself to death just before christmas few years ago, so my mom can have some peace at last.

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