Right, it’s now been 7 months since I came to this site and spilled my guts. To find out that I’m autistic at the age of 54 hit me like a hammer. I never knew why I was different and didn’t fit in anywhere. My life has been quite hard and difficult to navigate, I’m sure it strikes a chord with most of you. I have thought about taking my life since I was a child, I had got to the point of fully planning it and all the mechanics of it.
I still struggle a lot every day, but I can honestly say that I’ve not had a suicidal thought in the seven months. To find people who are the same as me and who I can communicate with when I want to has saved me. I thought I was the only person from my planet and no one else had survived. I’m still processing 50+ years but it’s all starting to make sense and a lot of the struggles are not my fault, The anxiety never goes away but I’m trying.
I’m neurodiverse and not ashamed to say it. Thank you all for just being there. Take care.
