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Who else goes to prostitutes

Thom George

You may remember me, I posted about this last year. Sorry if I got mean, I was going thru tough time and took it out here. I began seeing a counselor though and she has helped, so I am nicer now.

But back to topic, I stated in the past that I have found dating impossible and instead regularly sleep with prostitutes. I am 35 year old male with aspergers, I live independently in my own apartment, have a car and I work a normal job as an office data entry clerk. I am sure many of you also live normal lives with normal jobs.

However, my aspergers has effected me socially where I struggle with social skills. I have found dating impossible and no girl has ever liked me. So when I turned 30 I had enough and began going to prostitutes for sex. Keep in mind, I live in the states, where prostitution is illegal, but that is the least of my worries.

Within 5 years time, I have slept with 39 different girls. However, I have dealt with all the risks assoicated, such as girls suckering me into lending them money and then ripping me off, one girl even stole my credit card...other issues include me being physically threatened several times and these girls doing illegal drugs (mostly crack cocaine) in my car, putting me at risk.

I also have gotten gonnerea, mrsa and I possibly got one of my escorts pregnant (she is pregnant and claims I am the father, but she lies so much) and now have to worry about her coming after me once baby is born in October.

But I feel this is my only option cuz no matter what I do, girls do not like me and I think its an common aspergers male issue. I mean its mostly my approach, I come off too strong and stare at the girl without realizing it, I have a speech impediment and I breathe heavy, sadly people judge me on first impression instead of getting to know me. And online is no better, I send a girl a few messages just asking how her day was after I dont hear back, she blocks me calling me a stalker when I was just being friendly

This is why I feel things are so hopeless.Yet I refuse to be a celibate and give up the prostitutes cuz its my coping. See I am very angry I have aspergers and feel it is a curse and I feel by being sexually immoral and sleeping around, I am rebelling against my unfair life circumstances and also rebelling against God for creating me autistic (raised religious which didnt help, but ya gave me the idea of doing this to rebel against sexually immorality with Christianity) 

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  • Yea I get bothered seeing young couples in public. I mean I am out doing an activity I enjoy, like swimming at the beach, a young couple comes by, I feel both sad and angry. I feel sad I cant have that and angry that I am denied that and blame my aspergers. What made matters worse was I was seeing a very bad negative therapist who told me I cant have a girlfriend cuz I have aspergers. His words stuck in my head, even though I fired the therapist almost 3 years ago (I have a hard time letting the past go)

    Also speaking of the past, I failed to mention that I was homeschooled from age 10 all the way up to 17. Since my mom forced me to be homeschooled, I did not get to go to highschool, so I had zero chance of teen dating. I wonder if I had gone to regular school, if I would have maybe had better chance at least. Also my mom was a helicopter mom and treated me like a mamas boy into my 20s, constantly watching me, so I feel that also contributed to me being alone (my mom ended up getting cancer and died when I was 30 in 2018 - sad way to end things but it made me independent finally) 

    So I honestly feel me going to prostitutes is my way of rebelling against my disability and unfair life. This isnt about me being sex crazed, this is more being defiant and thinking me being a man-whore or male $lut is better than being a virgin. I hope this clarifies. 

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  • Yea I get bothered seeing young couples in public. I mean I am out doing an activity I enjoy, like swimming at the beach, a young couple comes by, I feel both sad and angry. I feel sad I cant have that and angry that I am denied that and blame my aspergers. What made matters worse was I was seeing a very bad negative therapist who told me I cant have a girlfriend cuz I have aspergers. His words stuck in my head, even though I fired the therapist almost 3 years ago (I have a hard time letting the past go)

    Also speaking of the past, I failed to mention that I was homeschooled from age 10 all the way up to 17. Since my mom forced me to be homeschooled, I did not get to go to highschool, so I had zero chance of teen dating. I wonder if I had gone to regular school, if I would have maybe had better chance at least. Also my mom was a helicopter mom and treated me like a mamas boy into my 20s, constantly watching me, so I feel that also contributed to me being alone (my mom ended up getting cancer and died when I was 30 in 2018 - sad way to end things but it made me independent finally) 

    So I honestly feel me going to prostitutes is my way of rebelling against my disability and unfair life. This isnt about me being sex crazed, this is more being defiant and thinking me being a man-whore or male $lut is better than being a virgin. I hope this clarifies. 

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