You may remember me, I posted about this last year. Sorry if I got mean, I was going thru tough time and took it out here. I began seeing a counselor though and she has helped, so I am nicer now.
But back to topic, I stated in the past that I have found dating impossible and instead regularly sleep with prostitutes. I am 35 year old male with aspergers, I live independently in my own apartment, have a car and I work a normal job as an office data entry clerk. I am sure many of you also live normal lives with normal jobs.
However, my aspergers has effected me socially where I struggle with social skills. I have found dating impossible and no girl has ever liked me. So when I turned 30 I had enough and began going to prostitutes for sex. Keep in mind, I live in the states, where prostitution is illegal, but that is the least of my worries.
Within 5 years time, I have slept with 39 different girls. However, I have dealt with all the risks assoicated, such as girls suckering me into lending them money and then ripping me off, one girl even stole my credit card...other issues include me being physically threatened several times and these girls doing illegal drugs (mostly crack cocaine) in my car, putting me at risk.
I also have gotten gonnerea, mrsa and I possibly got one of my escorts pregnant (she is pregnant and claims I am the father, but she lies so much) and now have to worry about her coming after me once baby is born in October.
But I feel this is my only option cuz no matter what I do, girls do not like me and I think its an common aspergers male issue. I mean its mostly my approach, I come off too strong and stare at the girl without realizing it, I have a speech impediment and I breathe heavy, sadly people judge me on first impression instead of getting to know me. And online is no better, I send a girl a few messages just asking how her day was after I dont hear back, she blocks me calling me a stalker when I was just being friendly
This is why I feel things are so hopeless.Yet I refuse to be a celibate and give up the prostitutes cuz its my coping. See I am very angry I have aspergers and feel it is a curse and I feel by being sexually immoral and sleeping around, I am rebelling against my unfair life circumstances and also rebelling against God for creating me autistic (raised religious which didnt help, but ya gave me the idea of doing this to rebel against sexually immorality with Christianity)
