Who else goes to prostitutes

You may remember me, I posted about this last year. Sorry if I got mean, I was going thru tough time and took it out here. I began seeing a counselor though and she has helped, so I am nicer now.

But back to topic, I stated in the past that I have found dating impossible and instead regularly sleep with prostitutes. I am 35 year old male with aspergers, I live independently in my own apartment, have a car and I work a normal job as an office data entry clerk. I am sure many of you also live normal lives with normal jobs.

However, my aspergers has effected me socially where I struggle with social skills. I have found dating impossible and no girl has ever liked me. So when I turned 30 I had enough and began going to prostitutes for sex. Keep in mind, I live in the states, where prostitution is illegal, but that is the least of my worries.

Within 5 years time, I have slept with 39 different girls. However, I have dealt with all the risks assoicated, such as girls suckering me into lending them money and then ripping me off, one girl even stole my credit card...other issues include me being physically threatened several times and these girls doing illegal drugs (mostly crack cocaine) in my car, putting me at risk.

I also have gotten gonnerea, mrsa and I possibly got one of my escorts pregnant (she is pregnant and claims I am the father, but she lies so much) and now have to worry about her coming after me once baby is born in October.

But I feel this is my only option cuz no matter what I do, girls do not like me and I think its an common aspergers male issue. I mean its mostly my approach, I come off too strong and stare at the girl without realizing it, I have a speech impediment and I breathe heavy, sadly people judge me on first impression instead of getting to know me. And online is no better, I send a girl a few messages just asking how her day was after I dont hear back, she blocks me calling me a stalker when I was just being friendly

This is why I feel things are so hopeless.Yet I refuse to be a celibate and give up the prostitutes cuz its my coping. See I am very angry I have aspergers and feel it is a curse and I feel by being sexually immoral and sleeping around, I am rebelling against my unfair life circumstances and also rebelling against God for creating me autistic (raised religious which didnt help, but ya gave me the idea of doing this to rebel against sexually immorality with Christianity) 

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  • what do you want to have sex with someone completely unknown to you?

    why do you want to have sex so badly?

    it won't validate you in any way 

    if I did it I would probably feel disgust towards myself after for weeks and fall back into depression, and thinking about going to the other side

    what is bad about being and living single?

  • I think its the religious upbringing, me being brainwahsed to wear "wait until your wedding night, the bible commands us to wait" made me very defiant and rebellious

    Also I think I sadly I have oppositional defiant in me, i mean I try to be nice but I seem to be drawn to bad and its very difficult for me 

    And how do I get out of the situation with the woman and her unborn daughter, if I am the baby daddy? This woman did alot to hurt me and I do not want to be sharing a child with her?  

  • if you are really daddy you'll be paying child benefit for the next 18 years, that's the price in this society

    I was raised christian too, the same stuff, and my mom constantly nagged me to get a wife and start making babies, I had to cut contact when I was 38, she refused to stop, I decided enough is enough

    I had sex once, she moved to US during the week after, so I might be daddy without knowing it

    there is good and bad in everyone

    what matters is if you do bad to others or you don't

    I say: just because everyone does, it doesn't mean I have to

  • Yes we did have a sorta friendship, she even told me we were a couple. However, I was paying her for her company, so not a real relationship. As long as money is involved, its still prostitution. She did an overnight with me, she charged me money still. And then she manipulated me by telling me that relationships work where the guy gives the girl money, trying to get me to give her money everyday, even when I was not seeing her for sex (I didnt see her for sex everyday, more like twice a week). 

    She has had a rough life and is bad drug user. but still I do not think it is ok to lie and manipulate someone, particularly someone with autism. 

  • I’m not going to say what you should or shouldn’t be doing. You are an adult. If you need education and support to make right decisions, then you should seek out that help. Clearly you have a lack of understanding in many areas, and you do need guidance, especially regarding what constitutes a relationship and where boundaries should be set.

    Of course a woman can be come pregnant at that age! As long as she’s menstruating, it’s a given, especially when protection isn’t being used. And that’s not just your responsibility by the way, 

    It sounds as though you were in a relationship with her? Spending time together and such?

    If I’m incorrect, and was being paid in exchange for company, then surely she can behave as she wishes. She might have been with you for what she could get, and why wouldn’t she? She sounds like she’s in a vulnerable situation, just as you appear to be. And if she’s not nice, cut her out of your life. 

  • I dont use a condom with any of these women, I do not like condoms and how they feel. So I go bare with everyone.  And no I do not pull out either, I finish inside the girl.

    This is why I am getting a vascetomy in the fall to prevent this from happening again. 

    And you dont know the story, this woman (her name is Missy, its ok to use someones first name) really did a lot ot play me and hurt me. She spent christmas with me and would do overnights at my apartment and cook meals for me, real nice and then she turns mean on me. She is the one who should be ashamed cuz she has an autistic son herself (ya she has other kids, some are grown and the ones who are underage were taken away from her cuz of her condition). But her oldest son is autistic and she told me she understands me for that reason, then does this.

    And btw this Missy woman is 45, now 46, another reason I am shocked she got pregnant cuz I thought too old.

  • How dare you comment on her being a drug user and prostitute? You are the one sleeping with her! Didn’t you use a condom? 

  • I agree with Mariusz, parenthood is relentless even if you’re not a single parent. If the authorities are involved then they may decide it’s best for the child to go into foster care or be adopted. I would be surprised if her medical team aren’t already aware or at least very suspicious of her lifestyle 

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