Struggling

I'm struggling. I can't work. I've tried but my sensory issues led to meltdowns, my lack of social understanding led to issues and I go non-verbal at the most inconvenient times (namely whenever I'm around anyone my brain deams as not safe which is 99%of people or anytime I have to speak on a phone). I was put into disability. But I feel so guilty. My friends name jibs at em when we go out and I get jumpy and overwelmed or tired about how I'm go not right to be tired because "its not like I'm working". My parents get mad when I don respond to them verbally or I don't respond to something I dont see as a question. I'm tryin my hardest to set myself routines but if somethin distracts me from that routine then I will forget something and then I get in trouble for that (usually it leads to me forgetting my meds or something similar).

I'm just tired I guess. And ranting.

I was only diagnosed 2 years ago at the age of 28 and while it answered a lot of questions it also raised alot as well.

Parents
  • Do you have ADHD too? As it sounds like distracting is a bit of a problem too.

    You need to stop worrying about what other people think or say. I would also suggest cutting your activities down, and learn how much stimulation and socialising you are capable of. When you are in charge of that, you may well find a job that suits, even if that’s for 6 hours a week. Give yourself time to adapt, and try to surround yourself with people that will support you.

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  • Do you have ADHD too? As it sounds like distracting is a bit of a problem too.

    You need to stop worrying about what other people think or say. I would also suggest cutting your activities down, and learn how much stimulation and socialising you are capable of. When you are in charge of that, you may well find a job that suits, even if that’s for 6 hours a week. Give yourself time to adapt, and try to surround yourself with people that will support you.

Children
  • ADHD was ruled out. I do have SPD and PTSD as well as being autistic. 

    It hard to stop worrying what others think when not of the time that's all the input I get from others. I got told by my parents I was over reacting to something today because my hearing is just to sensative. 

    I can't really explain things like I want to. Even on here.