Disposable people...

Autism brings with it a certain amount of friction between us and the normies, O.K.

BUT I've been discarded by SO very many people as if I were a used tissue.

I've had a little cluster of it this month, so it's of particular interest to me this week.

I've been working the problem for a full half century now, and I still can't quite decide why I seem to be so "discardable".

I've tried being nice, useful, controlling, submissive, and simply being myself, during various decades, but every time just when I think I've managed to get a few people around me who I can trust, it seems I discover I was either being "used", or "tolerated" by someone and my time is up....

I've learned to live with it, and just treasure the people around me who are not currently rejecting me.

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  • I can really relate to that. No matter how valuable people are to me, they seem to be able to discard me without a second thought. Makes it very hard for me to trust people or even enjoy friendships cos im never sure when im going to get dumped by them. Sometimes It feels like the whole thing was an illusion all along. 

    I have leared not to need many people in my life. A few that are close to me and that is that, I quite like having my own space 

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  • I can really relate to that. No matter how valuable people are to me, they seem to be able to discard me without a second thought. Makes it very hard for me to trust people or even enjoy friendships cos im never sure when im going to get dumped by them. Sometimes It feels like the whole thing was an illusion all along. 

    I have leared not to need many people in my life. A few that are close to me and that is that, I quite like having my own space 

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