Disposable people...

Autism brings with it a certain amount of friction between us and the normies, O.K.

BUT I've been discarded by SO very many people as if I were a used tissue.

I've had a little cluster of it this month, so it's of particular interest to me this week.

I've been working the problem for a full half century now, and I still can't quite decide why I seem to be so "discardable".

I've tried being nice, useful, controlling, submissive, and simply being myself, during various decades, but every time just when I think I've managed to get a few people around me who I can trust, it seems I discover I was either being "used", or "tolerated" by someone and my time is up....

I've learned to live with it, and just treasure the people around me who are not currently rejecting me.

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  • Like you I've had it pretty much all my life so a good twenty years. Happened at school and it still happens now.

    Not nice, but I've got my family and I treasure them as well. You just learn to accept it happens and let it pass by I guess.

  • Family is usually the one guaranteed constant, while everyone is still living anyway. Some people don't even have that, so we should be grateful. We all leave this life alone, so perhaps those of us who are tolerated only for a little while are the lucky ones. It's painful, but we're more innately primed for the end. Maybe. 

  • I've lived most of my life as a loner partly due to being rejected by other people, and I do feel lucky sometimes, because I don't have to deal with the stress that comes with having other people in my life. On the other hand I often end up feeling sorry for myself because I missed out on all the fun parts of being around other people.

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  • I've lived most of my life as a loner partly due to being rejected by other people, and I do feel lucky sometimes, because I don't have to deal with the stress that comes with having other people in my life. On the other hand I often end up feeling sorry for myself because I missed out on all the fun parts of being around other people.

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