Eating disorder

Yes I do... I struggle a lot with digestive issues (IBS style), ARFID-type issues, tendency to eat the same thing over and over etc. I was not believed by professionals when I said that my issues were not related to weight/shape concerns and I eventually got desperate and I spent ages trying to convince myself that I must have anorexia... because I was so frustrated that my problems did not fit into a category and that noone seemed to be able to help- This misdiagnosis caused a lot of damage and eventually also led to lots of binging (which I then also wasn't believed about... ie doctors thinking I must call normal portions a binge... but I doubt 9 ice creams or a whole cake etc in one sitting count as 'normal...'.) - now I struggle with that too - I got so used to trying to push myself to eat more than I felt comfortable with and part of me always feels like eating more can fix my problems... which of course it can't ... I finally found a good dietitian 2 years ago, who not only spent that time convincing me that I in fact definitely do not have anorexia (which I had known deep down for a long time) and also realised that I am autistic. I still struggle a lot with food and I loose weight extremely easily - it is very frustrating as I feel like if I eat in a way that makes my digestive issues managable I end up loosing weight, whereas if I push myself to eat more (even if it is very reasonable and not excessive), it upsets my digestion and I suffer a lot. Over the past years it usually goes like this... I try to protect my digestion, end up unintentionally loosing weight- I worry about it- i try to add in more food, eventually I end up so underweight - i try to gain weight in a relatively tolerable way for my digestion - it doesn't work- I get desperate and convince myself i must have anorexia... I end up having to resort to lots of junk food and forcing myself to eat to gain back the  weight- it's absolute agony- i cannot do it anymore... so once I am back to a normal weight I try to transition to something that feels more comfortable digestion wise and is healthier... I end up loosing weight again... it's driving me mad as I would just love to be able to eat to meet my body's needs without the digestive issues and without force feeding. I know that stress plays a huge part for me too... and I naturally tend to loose weight easily (I recently was trying so hard and got through 2 jars of peanut butter with bread as snacks only in a week... on top of regular meals... and still lost weight... i didn't tolerate it well, so I gave up and I am now fading away again... )- sorry I feel like I am rambling on... i'm very frustrated at the moment. 

Yes I do... I struggle a lot with digestive issues (IBS style), ARFID-type issues, tendency to eat the same thing over and over etc. I was not believed by professionals when I said that my issues were not related to weight/shape concerns and I eventually got desperate and I spent ages trying to convince myself that I must have anorexia... because I was so frustrated that my problems did not fit into a category and that noone seemed to be able to help- This misdiagnosis caused a lot of damage and eventually also led to lots of binging (which I then also wasn't believed about... ie doctors thinking I must call normal portions a binge... but I doubt 9 ice creams or a whole cake etc in one sitting count as 'normal...'.) - now I struggle with that too - I got so used to trying to push myself to eat more than I felt comfortable with and part of me always feels like eating more can fix my problems... which of course it can't ... I finally found a good dietitian 2 years ago, who not only spent that time convincing me that I in fact definitely do not have anorexia (which I had known deep down for a long time) and also realised that I am autistic. I still struggle a lot with food and I loose weight extremely easily - it is very frustrating as I feel like if I eat in a way that makes my digestive issues managable I end up loosing weight, whereas if I push myself to eat more (even if it is very reasonable and not excessive), it upsets my digestion and I suffer a lot. Over the past years it usually goes like this... I try to protect my digestion, end up unintentionally loosing weight- I worry about it- i try to add in more food, eventually I end up so underweight - i try to gain weight in a relatively tolerable way for my digestion - it doesn't work- I get desperate and convince myself i must have anorexia... I end up having to resort to lots of junk food and forcing myself to eat to gain back the  weight- it's absolute agony- i cannot do it anymore... so once I am back to a normal weight I try to transition to something that feels more comfortable digestion wise and is healthier... I end up loosing weight again... it's driving me mad as I would just love to be able to eat to meet my body's needs without the digestive issues and without force feeding. I know that stress plays a huge part for me too... and I naturally tend to loose weight easily (I recently was trying so hard and got through 2 jars of peanut butter with bread as snacks only in a week... on top of regular meals... and still lost weight... i didn't tolerate it well, so I gave up and I am now fading away again... )- sorry I feel like I am rambling on... i'm very frustrated at the moment.