So do I show signs of autism or am I just trying to label myself?
I tried to explain to my Mum yesterday at a family BBQ that I may actually have some degree of autism. Every time I mention it she laughs and says that its ridiculous and that no child of hers could possibly have such a thing.
The thing is that she seems to have forgotten how my childhood was for me. At 54 I still struggle to comprehend where and how I got through all these years without stopping to ask the question. Then I remember that I am so good at masking and mimicking that I just did the best I could to survive.
All the signs are there. Everything listed in typical autism traits are there, I tick almost every box going. I want to scream at her for laughing it off but I remain calm and only my older brother supports me on it. He can see it, how hard I try not to lose the plot when my parent seems so upset that one of her children may not be "normal".
Anyway, I will be solving my own life puzzle as the struggle has reached a peak. I cannot hide any more and need help to understand why I am like I am
