hi everyone. i was diagnosed around a year ago after years of feeling like a marooned alien, not fitting in etc since i was a kid. i quit my last job because of bullying by one person (discrete comments about me being lazy etc while he was walking past). now im in a different job where its 10 times worse from multiple people and when i complain i get told im doing it in bad faith because i dont have any social network so no one will defend me or stick up for me, even though everyone sees it, and just seems to accept it and im being conducted / moved to a different office now. ive had several meltdowns, ive been in constant bother with colleagues since day one.
can anyone relate to this? the rumination, always being on alert, paranoia, anxiety, lack of sleep and self hate is making me really ill and its hard to leave the house at times because im scared of the extreme reactions i seem to provoke from people.
ive had a few meldowns in my local supermarket which dosent help and its another thing that haunts me.
