Published on 12, July, 2020
i know i do the eye contact form of it, because i have to force myself to do it, and my eyes always feel strained.
but i find, when im walking about, that i kind of force an upright posture on myself, and occasionally slip out of it which i notice, then force an upright posture on myself again.
i know that psychologically, its to remove any impression of vulnerability, i have hypervigilance going on in my head i think.
but i do tend to kind of look at the ground if i dont do that, just, instinctively.
ive noticed for years too, that i kind of have a "blank" expression, no Matter how ive felt, from down to angry, although its me thats noticed it not others.
if this sounds a confused ramble, its cos it is lol
That's masking for sure. You're doing things to be like everyone else, that's masking for you. I do this a lot, just to fit in and be "normal". I notice I skip walk a bit like a child so I try to copy other women how they walk and talk. Masking.
It's good you recognize you're doing it. Masking is exhausting. It causes anxiety. And confusion. But because of pressure you feel you have to do it. Best to try not to though. You don't want burn out and it can lead to that sometimes.
I understand the struggle. I get it most of the time. Masking is easy to do without even realising it.
Take your time with this. You need to do what's right for you and we're here to support you every step of the way.
sorry, i have read jt, just feeling crap and a that, so going bef now.
thank yiu