Published on 12, July, 2020
i know i do the eye contact form of it, because i have to force myself to do it, and my eyes always feel strained.
but i find, when im walking about, that i kind of force an upright posture on myself, and occasionally slip out of it which i notice, then force an upright posture on myself again.
i know that psychologically, its to remove any impression of vulnerability, i have hypervigilance going on in my head i think.
but i do tend to kind of look at the ground if i dont do that, just, instinctively.
ive noticed for years too, that i kind of have a "blank" expression, no Matter how ive felt, from down to angry, although its me thats noticed it not others.
if this sounds a confused ramble, its cos it is lol
Anything you do to look or appear ‘normal’ to others, or to fit in with others is considered masking. Anything that hides your true self.
so essentially, anything i feel im forcing myself to do?
from, putting myself into situations/places im uncomfortable or cant deal well with, to physical/mental impression?
Yes, it is, and I’m sure your list is as endless as mine would be. I’m trying to stop. It’s early days, but I’m putting myself first instead of social expectation.