Things reached a head recently and we had a break. I have been stuck in a cycle of feeling worthless...lazy...workshy and that im using her...while at same time trying to do more chores etc while fighting feelings of being a child...less responsibility etc...ok with basics and not wanting more.
I dont know how to stop thinking this way...everyone says id be too overwhelmed in work and im not in a good place for that to happen. It all stems from seeing world in a certain way and i struggle to understand how people live day to day. Sometimes i see things different and it makes me wonder if its all self sabotage or if its rose tinted and im not seeing world as it is and i feel guilt.
I have a chance to mend it but people want me to drop the lazy and the work talk. How do i ditch the negative and see not working as ok and still express myself or be happy
