I stated in a post that I don’t require friends, don’t feel like I am missing out, and I don’t ever feel lonely. However, I don’t always know what my feelings are, so maybe I am lonely but don’t know it lol.
Either way, I’m not sad, nor am I desperate for friendships, and I really do love my solitude.
All my friendships ended, and I never knew why. My last ended 24yrs ago.
Since my diagnosis in March, I’ve come to realise that friendships cause me immense stress and confusion. With that in mind, I still recently went onto Bumble BFF to find friends lol. I think it would be beneficial if I had a friend that I could chat to online, or perhaps someone closer who I could (rarely) go for a walk with, or visit the cinema or something else quiet and basic.
I have had several people like my profile, who identity with my bio, so I know they are ND. However, I’m terrified to swipe on them. I just can’t bring myself to do it. It’s like one swipe will lead to texts, and I struggle with replying to texts…and then the possibility of meeting eventually etc. I almost feel like they won’t like me, and I have too many issues to warrant being friends with (not just ASD).
Also, will I get on with them? I can’t assume they will become a friend or acquaintance and we will get along just becuase we’re both ND. Personality also plays a part in friend funding, doesn’t it. 