Gosh I'm struggling so much at the minute. I am so grateful that I'm beginning to understand myself slightly better (I'm self diagnosed - waiting for my formal diagnosis) but gosh it's hard when you've had an inner voice telling you for years that you're weird to stop that 'alien' feeling.
I just don't understand conversations with others - I never know whether people are talking toe about negative or positive things so I just don't know how to react to them and I find myself repeating 'oh right' over and over again. I'm also just not interested in small talk and inane chit chat and I can't understand why people are.
I also just can't face any kind of social interaction with anyone other than my immediate family - I'm just happy at home watching old comedies on repeat and doing my puzzles. Luckily my husband is beginning to understand me a little better but that negative loop in my head is tricky to stop.
