I struggle to get up in the mornings. I always feel just as tired if not more so then when I went to bed. I need at least 30 minutes or more after my alarm sounds to actually get out of bed. Sometimes I sleep badly, sometimes well, this seems to be on a weekly rota basis. I'm used to this, I don't like it and it's depressing, but I've never been any different so I try not to let it get me down. It's common for autistics to have disrupted sleep patterns and difficulty waking up - I'm sure many of you experience something similar!
I work full-time and luckily I work flexible hours so my manager is happy for me to start at 10am or even 11, I also work from home so I can usually get to my desk by half 9 but sometimes it's 10am. I'm ok with this, I couldn't hold the job without these adjustments. My problem is not even my colleagues (although I sometimes feel judgement from them but that could be my own paranoia), but it's my dad!
Almost every day he's laughing at my start times. Sometimes he asks me what time I started work then snorts. Or makes snide comments like "so-and-so is coming at 9 tomorrow, sorry for waking you up earlier than usual". He often makes comments suggesting I don't work hard or enough. The stupid thing is he worked flexibly before he retired so I have no idea what his problem is! Occasional comments like this I can deal with but it really is almost every day. It doesn't help that I'm currently staying with my parents, so I'm a target every day instead of a few days a week when I lived alone. I'm hoping very much to move out soon but my moving date keeps getting delayed.
Does anyone have a similar experience? I'm just looking for solidarity really, to know I'm not alone with bad morning starts or insensitive family members. Thank you!!
