I can totally relate to what you feel, lots of negative attention from the community like laughing/staring really hate it and makes me sad. Since I have grown up I feel like I have turned into someone who doesn't like to be in the centre of attention almost feel like I have lost my sparkle cause I used to dance and sing and have lots of fun but since I have got older my life has slightly turned downwards and I am that person now where I like to keep myself to myself and be quiet away from the community outside.
A great example would be when I was sitting by a fountain listening to water sounds I did nothing just walked up to sit on the bench and this lady and her daughter just randomly started smirking and I got really upset and annoyed by it. I almost felt like I wanted to cry because I was angry. Things like this are happening alot to me on a regular basis for no reason. I have been told by a few people that I probably need to work on my confidence a bit more which I completely agree but having autism comes with severe anxiety for some people and based on my experience and learning about it I am much more aware that this could be all related to you feeling "nervous" or "anxious" the sad truth it's part of having autism.
I can totally relate to what you feel, lots of negative attention from the community like laughing/staring really hate it and makes me sad. Since I have grown up I feel like I have turned into someone who doesn't like to be in the centre of attention almost feel like I have lost my sparkle cause I used to dance and sing and have lots of fun but since I have got older my life has slightly turned downwards and I am that person now where I like to keep myself to myself and be quiet away from the community outside.
A great example would be when I was sitting by a fountain listening to water sounds I did nothing just walked up to sit on the bench and this lady and her daughter just randomly started smirking and I got really upset and annoyed by it. I almost felt like I wanted to cry because I was angry. Things like this are happening alot to me on a regular basis for no reason. I have been told by a few people that I probably need to work on my confidence a bit more which I completely agree but having autism comes with severe anxiety for some people and based on my experience and learning about it I am much more aware that this could be all related to you feeling "nervous" or "anxious" the sad truth it's part of having autism.
