A wasted life

My father’s condom broke in 1996, Now I exist to pay bills and have crippling depression.

Not abandoned, just lost. 

I’m 25, failed GCSE’s in high-school, at 16 had to stay in education and secondary school forced me on to a level 2 animal care course. Completed and moved onto level 3, got a conditional place at the royal vet college on the conditions I get distinction stars, got distinctions except in one unit as teacher never taught it, family stopped me attending college as they needed me to work to provide as sister, her partner and their daughter moved back home missed my chance at going to university. By 19 I was mental and physically I’ll suffering with sepsis as two worker jab me with a concoction of livestock medication with a dirty needle, I was also prevented from seeking medical intervention because my parent where worried it would result in their employer (same as theirs different farm) from being shut down, which lead to me getting taking advantage at a poorly regulated apprenticeship, got ran over by the co worker from previous job who stabbed me in a tractor. Then Worked in Wetherspoons where I was bully and harassed while my bother and his wife took advantage of me and took majority of my wages. from their I have returned to farming and got stabbed and poisoned again which resulted in a two week coma, I have done every employment scheme that exists and eventually got rehoused after a needs assessment which automatically told me I needed to move out of the family home at 24.

im now in my own flat, attending college 1 day a week to complete GCSE in English and maths as an adult and I’m looking into realistic education or apprenticeship with the support of the employment team. 

I refuse to just exist I wanna live

1. The  most hurtful thing is realising you mean nothing to the people around you. Take care 

1. The  most hurtful thing is realising you mean nothing to the people around you. Take care 

I told him about autism....he wasn't bothered enough to learn about it. Let's hope he can look after the family from now on. I'm done!