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Researching interests but not actually taking part

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Often it seems I have an interest in something and can read and read and read and research about it but when it comes to actually applying myself to take part in said interest, I find it difficult to get myself started - knowing where to start, what to do. Or I force mself to start and it feels half arsed or I don't seem to get anywhere with it. It feels like I'd rather just read about it and collect "favourites" in my bookmarks but never actually do anything with them. Can anyone relate to this at all

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  • I can relate a little with some of my creative hobbies - 3D printing and woodwork. I spend hours watching youtube and have invested in tools and equipment but I usually find it quite difficult to start a project. I've got loads of ideas in my head of things to make but when it I finally get some free time I just don't know where to start and end up just staring at the workbench or my screen for ages. 

    I think a big part of it is beings scared of failure or my perfectionism - The design has to be perfect so I agonise over every design decision and as a result I never actually build anything. I'm trying to keep in mind that I get more skilled by practicing and that the act of doing it wrong and learning from my mistakes is far more rewarding than playing it too safe and never actually achieving anything, but it is difficult. 

  • in reply to Spreadsheets&Pizza
    Spreadsheets&Pizza said:
    I think a big part of it is beings scared of failure or my perfectionism

    Yes, both. High emotional investment versus high expectation from yoursef in perspective of uncertain outcome.

    What if I told you, I will buy your creation, no matter the outcome, for £10000? Would this incentive be sufficient enough to motivate you?

    Do you often write something, and erase it and reiterate?

    How often do you find yourself in position where you have to make a choice between two, but know nothing about it, can't research it and just have to make a choice? Do you feel anxious? Feel like you don't want to make that decision?

    Fear of judgement, criticism?

    I'm very good cook, but very inconsitent. When I cook something really tasty, it motivates to cook more, explore new flavors, crate new recipies. But when it comes out borderline edible I withdraw, feel rage toward myself to the point where I announce very clearly and loudly to my family I NEVER COOK AGAIN!

    I know, even michelin starred chefs sometimes toss what they make into the bin, they just keep cooking until it's right.

    Obsessive research seems like natural response - the more I know before I start, less likely I'm going to fail.

    Yesterday I had incredible mental clarity, I managed to write 4 pages of my CV. I did so well in comparison to what I did over last three months. Today I'm teriffied. I expect to do at least as well, but fear of failure, or not meeting my very high expectation causes me not to try.  

    Never try, never fail.

  • in reply to a typical Autist

    Never try, never succeed. I did some tidying this weekend and really glad I persevered despite minor setbacks. I'm pleased with the results and feel motivated. I need to remember this for next time....think of the end result, the bigger picture.

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