I have High-Functioning ASD, ADHD and GAD, and I am currently separated. My wife and I have been more-or-less doing everything together, albeit not living together, for over 2 years. With the exception of COVID and lockdown, we have been getting on great.
But a few weeks ago she told me she had no feelings for me for over 3 years and that she was merely following the GOV.UK guidelines - whatever that means.
My initial reaction was pure shock and even up until now it doesn't feel real. I feel as though I am in a state of denial that things are what they are, that she doesn't mean it and that I am being punished.
Family and friends are being very supportive, but it feels like I am hard-wired not to give up and to keep on trying to do more and more even if it makes my symptoms worse - which it has several times.
I feel like I am trapped inside a bubble in my mind that belongs to her and there is no escape, but even if there was a means to escape I'm afraid of what's outside the bubble, and therefore I'm reluctant to get out.
I'm sorry if that makes no sense - that's just how I feel all the time.
Is this a normal thought process?
Any advice would be greatly appreciated. :)
