Weird but important interests

Since i was a child i had a preference to white noise and the noise of fans, hair dryers, air conditioners, vacuum cleaners, heaters, thunderstorm, wind, meditation music and choral music.

I hear YouTube videos with these sounds everyday most of the time even when i am sleeping, even now.

These sounds make me feel more safe, secure, relaxed and calms my triggers

I like to discover new channels or videos about these sounds.

Summer is my favorite because i turn on the fan and except the sound i feel its air too and i shivering wonderfully.

This happens also when i hear these noises on youtube and i love it when it happens.

I thought it was only an interest at first but now i believe it's something more.

It's important for me to hear these sounds everyday to feel relaxed and secure.

It helps me express myself more without suspensions.

If i had to write something about my feelings for example without hearing these sounds i would feel like a thousands of eyes looking at me and judging me, including the negative voice in my head.

But when i hear these noises it's like they make a wall of safety around me and calms my triggers and negative voice inside my head (not real voice lol).

I feel really lucky that my parents don't complain about these sounds because i have them on high volume.

While i am listening i see some pictures i like too. The character of my favorite cartoon.

Have you have interests that are so important to you?

  • I have a really weird interest. I like filming myself pretending to die dramatically and then watch it for pleasure. 

  • Dark Cloud,

    Most of us autistic have at least one special interest, these special interests surge some great purposes.

    Special interests make things easier to learn, helps us be more enthusiastic, help us talk more and find it easier to learn communication and interaction. Our special interests help us calm down and feel safe.

     I would expect autistic people to have a special interest.

  • As I child, I used to love lying by the vacuum when my mum was cleaning.  I love the noise a vacuum makes now and any white noise.  The only other thing thing that comes close is total quiet.