Literally everything in my life is difficult. I’m a uni student, supposed to be a high achiever who is going places. But I’m crippled with anxiety, and since realising that I’m autistic I’m seeing more and more that my struggles are quite extreme. For an example, if I have to send an email to a tutor, this will take at least 20 minutes because I have to read it over and over and over until it sounds right. I know this seems small, but I think to myself, if I can’t even send an email without intense anxiety, how am I going to cope with everything in life? Like, I cannot see any way I will ever be able to cope with a job, I can’t even drag myself to my 4 lectures per week. I’m in my final year and I just don’t know what I’m going to do next, I can’t engage socially with people, my anxiety is so bad and I cannot relate to anyone. I don’t have any ambitions and I feel so different and abnormal when compared to other people my age. I just don’t think I can do this anymore.
