I had my first meeting this morning with my GP, I took the advice that some of you gave me and have been making notes of all the things that affect me.
I think I blurted out 50 years of my issues in about 10 minutes. I was so scared of being disbelieved. The result was that he told me that he believed my issues were of genuine concern and I need an urgent assessment, he gave me an AQ10 test to takeaway. I told him I did one online and scored 9 but I’ve got to do another to give him more ammunition on record.
someone actually believes me
I actually sat in the car and cried, I’ve not been mad for 50 years. It’s like a big weight has been lifted. I know it’s only the start, but it’s a start.
I told him about my last meltdown, I very rarely go in that direction. I normally shut down and become non verbal.
when I do have a meltdown it’s as if my brain is going faster and faster and won’t let me rest, if you can imagine sheets of binary or life that get faster, a rage that is like nothing else I can describe then joins in. I try to kill it sometimes with alcohol but on the last occasion it worsened it. I normally then pass out for a few hours and then wake up very tearful and anxious.
I then have to rest for about 2 days as I’m totally exhausted. Is this the same for anyone else?
