The way some people talk to Autism people they speak like I am baby, or dog.

they dont acknowledge my existance, probably because i dont really talk in person and only speak as a response when im spoken to. i guess perhaps people then think im ignoring them or not speaking to them so in turn they do not speak to me either. then i start becoming paranoid about how they feel about me, whether they hate me in some way.

which then makes me react and hate them more back for the feeling that they may hate me. mixed with sadness and depression ofcourse. which seems the norm for me to always be feeling a mix of anger and sadness with sometimes a in between of nothingness.

I was told I had autism in 1999 that is nearly 12 years ago. I have been masking a lot do you know what that is? I am not trying to upset you by asking. If you don’t know I can explain.

I was told I had autism in 1999 that is nearly 12 years ago. I have been masking a lot do you know what that is? I am not trying to upset you by asking. If you don’t know I can explain.

People have said to me, “you are so real you seem to be like most people,” I don’t tell them I have autism. They have said that it is so refreshing to see someone who just says things the way it is. I do too. 

yus, it is a facade. in a way everyone masks even nt's as i doubt anyone truly wants to show on their face how they truly feel or say what they truly think, thus that is a mask even when nt's do it. nt's defo do it too as they wont tell a person to their face what they truly think about them, they go along with a act to make out to other person they are cool with them, but when that other person leaves they then gossip and whine about that other person and how they dont like the way they act or things they say, this is proof to me that everyone masks in some form.

everyones outside is different in appearance to what they are on the inside. it is society i guess that is responsible for this, we all try to create a hard stoic outside to mask our soft vulnerable emotional and erratic inside. or a freindly agreeable outside to mask a disagreeable inside.