Hi,
I’m having an assessment next week and following weeks and it seems to be (to anyone who knows me apparently) a foregone conclusion I’ll be diagnosed on the spectrum. Recently I’ve been under immense stress, business, moving home and taking people to court (business related) etc and I’ve started to experience weird stuff going on within me for about a month and I don’t like it and looking for help.
As an example, I’ve just been to the bank and I was in a rush to get somewhere else (solicitors and bank to transfer funds very stressful); my behaviour was appalling but I just couldn’t stop. The noise, the fact I’d to wait at least 40 minutes to simply do a transfer just seemed to put me into, well I don’t know what tbh, overload maybe, I was fidgeting and foot wagging, messing with my phone and just basically acting like a sulking 3 year old. But the internal anger at the injustice of having to wait in their was too much, it was awkward for everyone. I’m in my 50’s for goodness sake.
Is this a meltdown? I’ve had a few in the past when I was under stress but this is just a never ending feeling of anger/frustration and confusion and just not giving two cares to masking. It’s not stopping me function and in normal circumstances I can still mask with loved ones and clients. Sound familiar?
