Feeling like I'm going to explode

Hi. I Went out with my bro on his 50th birthday today and he started getting moody with me and I asked why. He said I hadn't wished him many happy returns! So I've come down through Storm Barra with my new cat and done things like cook his tea yesterday and brought him tea this morning and cooked breakfast. We've done a lot of things he's wanted to do which I didn't want to do so it's been his day. What does he want? Blood! And to put the boot on the other foot he forgot my 50th birthday and thought I was 49. He hasn't made any effort to make amends for what he did. I'm really upset and p*ssed off by him as I've made an effort which is hard for me as I'd rather be back at home doing things I like by myself with my cat and not doing people or celebrations listening to music which is my sanity escape and I haven't been allowed to do. On top of that he's told me he'll need help when he retires and our parents die in the future. He's the last person I want to deal with. I feel like I want to have a meltdown. I'm really trying not to. Thank goodness he's gone out for a bit.

Parents
  • Hi I’m Diane, only found out I have hight autism not long ago. I know what you mean. I find it hard when people want me to do things, when they are not in my normal day.

    I do only try to do what I feel will not upset me.

    I missed my sisters wedding because I couldn’t leave my pets. I just couldn’t go. It was 7 hours away. I couldn’t think how I would get home and who would feed my Parrots. I did not go. I felt bad. But what could I do? She has forgiven me.

    I’m not seeing my family for Christmas because now I have 2 Yorkshire Terrier’s. I want to see my dad, but when I go one of my sisters always gets me to chop veg and put bins out and do her hoovering. Plus wash pans. I hate doing all those jobs. I thought If you go for  Christmas you sit and just eat and drink watch films maybe. I don’t do all those jobs at my other sisters place.

  • I have a friend with two Autistic kids, and they have Pizza for Christmas Day. 

  • I don't know how to make pizza dough yet

    otherwise I might haver tried that too Smiley

    but I learned how to make dumplings dough

    so I could have dumplings ''Dumplings 20 ways Christmas'' if there was somebody to enjoy it with me

    my favourite are those called in Poland 'russian' dumplings

Reply
  • I don't know how to make pizza dough yet

    otherwise I might haver tried that too Smiley

    but I learned how to make dumplings dough

    so I could have dumplings ''Dumplings 20 ways Christmas'' if there was somebody to enjoy it with me

    my favourite are those called in Poland 'russian' dumplings

Children
No Data