• Replies 5 replies
  • Subscribers 85 subscribers
  • Views 1130 views
  • Users 0 members are here
Options
Related
Hints and tips
  • To quote someone's message, first select/highlight the relevant text, and then use the Quote button that appears
  • To "mention" someone, type @ followed by the start of the forum name, and choose from the list; that person will get a notification of being mentioned

Adult dx: Anger towards those who should’ve done something

NAS76602

Hi all,

undergoing assessment process starting next week but it seems to pretty obvious to those who know me. I’m kinda getting my head around the prospect. Some of the reading I’ve done alarms me; I’ve experienced bullying both obvious types like at school and uni etc and the more subtle isolating tricks NTs use when they don’t like someone (both hurt just as much imo). 

I’m over 50 years old and I look back at my life and to be honest, I’m extremely annoyed and angry at those who should have done something allowed this behaviour towards me to continue and even took part - parents, siblings, teachers, colleagues (I’m a MH healthcare professional) etc. The closer I get to my assessment the more intense these feelings are……those that are supposed to love and look after me, just let me have a miserable life wondering why I don’t fit in. Anyone else experience these thoughts and feelings? Do they pass?

tia x

Parents

  • I have some feelings like this (I am diagnosed this year at 42).

    I've done a lot of reading on Autism one of the ideas that helped a little was understanding how little information there was in the 'public domain' (or just general understanding) at the times when it would have helped me.

    I was at secondary school in the 90s. Not only did I hide my struggles from everyone (including family) but even if I had shouted from the rooftops an accurate picture of what I was going through, I (personally) feel that there was simply not enough knowledge going around for people to have understood and, even further, to have intervened.

    Yes, there are some really significant kickers in there (the GP who told me to 'pull your socks up, go out and make some friends') and my mother to whom I said (at great personal cost) I think I might be depressed: 'well you don't want to one of those people do you?'

    I know there were some genuine missed opportunities but I don't really *blame* people, I ask myself what did they really know? How could they even see things that I was hiding from everyone...?

    I am still angry with that GP from when I was 14. I'm a little bit angry at my parents but realistically a bad intervention could have been way way worse than just letting me stumble around. Maybe.

Reply

  • I have some feelings like this (I am diagnosed this year at 42).

    I've done a lot of reading on Autism one of the ideas that helped a little was understanding how little information there was in the 'public domain' (or just general understanding) at the times when it would have helped me.

    I was at secondary school in the 90s. Not only did I hide my struggles from everyone (including family) but even if I had shouted from the rooftops an accurate picture of what I was going through, I (personally) feel that there was simply not enough knowledge going around for people to have understood and, even further, to have intervened.

    Yes, there are some really significant kickers in there (the GP who told me to 'pull your socks up, go out and make some friends') and my mother to whom I said (at great personal cost) I think I might be depressed: 'well you don't want to one of those people do you?'

    I know there were some genuine missed opportunities but I don't really *blame* people, I ask myself what did they really know? How could they even see things that I was hiding from everyone...?

    I am still angry with that GP from when I was 14. I'm a little bit angry at my parents but realistically a bad intervention could have been way way worse than just letting me stumble around. Maybe.

Children
No Data