colleagues

My coworkers are not my friends.

I know they aren’t but it hurts.

My workmates are my only mates and I used to think my teammates were actually my friends. 

That we were bunch of friends because we spend most of the day together, eat together, work together. 

Maybe they are friends, just not to me.

Laughing together, talking together, drinking after work together.

It makes me sad. Why I even care?

I’ll be fine.

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  • My colleagues are just that. Colleagues. I don’t ever call them friends. Even the few that I do actually  like being around. I don’t know what constitutes a friendship anyway until it’s pointed out to me.

    In all my jobs, sometimes I was invited, sometimes I wasn’t, I did question why sometimes, and other times I felt like I should be invited, then realised I was at a different life stage to them, and why would they want someone my age around them? I hadn’t realised initially, because I look, and feel very young inside. My difficulties make me feel like I haven’t experienced life properly, or as much as is usual for someone my age (48).

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  • My colleagues are just that. Colleagues. I don’t ever call them friends. Even the few that I do actually  like being around. I don’t know what constitutes a friendship anyway until it’s pointed out to me.

    In all my jobs, sometimes I was invited, sometimes I wasn’t, I did question why sometimes, and other times I felt like I should be invited, then realised I was at a different life stage to them, and why would they want someone my age around them? I hadn’t realised initially, because I look, and feel very young inside. My difficulties make me feel like I haven’t experienced life properly, or as much as is usual for someone my age (48).

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