Really struggling

I'm waiting for my diagnosis and am currently suffering from a major breakdown.  I am currently signed off from work because of anxiety (I just can't cope being around others) and I'm due to go back to work on 17th but the idea of it is just making me so anxious.  I've got to the point now where I can't leave the house alone (without my husband or sons).  I was trying to come off the anti depressants but I'm now back on them because I just want to shut myself away from the outside world.  I am gaining a much greater understanding of autism and how it affects me and I thought that meant I was coming to terms with it but gosh I feel so very low at the minute.  I just don't see how I can continue working and this is really scaring me because I think my husband will leave me if I don't work.  

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  • Hi Mrs G,

    So sorry to hear about your situation. It sounds really tough. I work in education too so I understand how overwhelming it can be, especially with other adults. I always used to hide in the toilet at my old school for hours on end. 

    Does your husband know about your autism if you dont mind me asking? If he does, maybe he could read up on it and that would make him more understanding of how you feel and what goes on inside your head. Dont know but maybe

    Just take some time to look after yourself and be good to you. No job is more important than that. Hopefully your husband will come to understand eventually 

    You have a whole community of people here who understand and we are all here for you 

  • Thank you so much for your message.  It really means a lot to me to know that others understand how I feel.

    I was coping (to a point) at work before by allowing myself calming time in the toilet but on the last occasion I just couldn't calm down - it just felt so overwhelming.

    I love working with children (I think it's their lack of judgement) but being around adults drains me so much.  I just don't know what to do but messages like this help so very much.

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  • Thank you so much for your message.  It really means a lot to me to know that others understand how I feel.

    I was coping (to a point) at work before by allowing myself calming time in the toilet but on the last occasion I just couldn't calm down - it just felt so overwhelming.

    I love working with children (I think it's their lack of judgement) but being around adults drains me so much.  I just don't know what to do but messages like this help so very much.

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