Jealousy- does anyone else suffer from it?

It's the intensity that is frustrating. It would be natural that any emotion is heightened an overwhelming amount for anyone autistic. 

I'd been accused of this years ago and it strikes me as rather odd that someone who was cheating would then accuse me of being jealous. Why was he even in a relationship? It felt unjust so I became intensely focused on attempting to work out what systems were at play, like his gaslighting. This project / obsession turned into a few years as I began to unravel I really didn't understand emotions in the least. I learned that I misidentified or misrepresented emotions because others were assuming my motives were neurotypical. Basically, I hit a point in my 30s where I'd really had enough - long before I knew what Autism even was. 

I found articles like this examining the difference between jealousy and envy: https://www.psychologytoday.com/gb/blog/toxic-relationships/202107/dealing-triangulation-envy-and-jealousy

I discovered that if I actually started feeling jealous it was because I felt compromised in some way and eventually learned the only way to deal with this with a NT is to remove myself from the situation. But with said above mate, I recall feeling embarrassed or humiliated when he'd flirt with individuals right in front of me, or even behind my back. I wasn't jealous. Enough research helped me identity what I was feeling and that women use men to compete. They dominate each other by collecting intimate moments with another's 'better or not-so-better' other half. Men do it too but not as much. There's really no such thing as harmless flirting. But then there are individuals who don't get too invested, who don't suffer intense emotions and who aren't as open or vulnerable enough to be bothered. The flip side of not getting too attached is either a cruel unhappiness or an inability to actually be vulnerable but that might be a fantasy sighting on a forum like this!

I spent years looking into the philosophy and psychology of this only to discover cruel games people play, all to gain some imaginary sense of power over. And then unravelling misidentified emotions. Confusing one thing for another is easy when people are quick to judge and satiated by very surface value judgements... which can lead to feeling ashamed of something I didn't do or couldn't even imagine intending. 

Jealousy isn't bad when appropriately placed with someone who might hope you do feel it occasionally. If the emotions weren't so intense. And on a good day I'm rather irate with my computer! 

It's the intensity that is frustrating. It would be natural that any emotion is heightened an overwhelming amount for anyone autistic. 

I'd been accused of this years ago and it strikes me as rather odd that someone who was cheating would then accuse me of being jealous. Why was he even in a relationship? It felt unjust so I became intensely focused on attempting to work out what systems were at play, like his gaslighting. This project / obsession turned into a few years as I began to unravel I really didn't understand emotions in the least. I learned that I misidentified or misrepresented emotions because others were assuming my motives were neurotypical. Basically, I hit a point in my 30s where I'd really had enough - long before I knew what Autism even was. 

I found articles like this examining the difference between jealousy and envy: https://www.psychologytoday.com/gb/blog/toxic-relationships/202107/dealing-triangulation-envy-and-jealousy

I discovered that if I actually started feeling jealous it was because I felt compromised in some way and eventually learned the only way to deal with this with a NT is to remove myself from the situation. But with said above mate, I recall feeling embarrassed or humiliated when he'd flirt with individuals right in front of me, or even behind my back. I wasn't jealous. Enough research helped me identity what I was feeling and that women use men to compete. They dominate each other by collecting intimate moments with another's 'better or not-so-better' other half. Men do it too but not as much. There's really no such thing as harmless flirting. But then there are individuals who don't get too invested, who don't suffer intense emotions and who aren't as open or vulnerable enough to be bothered. The flip side of not getting too attached is either a cruel unhappiness or an inability to actually be vulnerable but that might be a fantasy sighting on a forum like this!

I spent years looking into the philosophy and psychology of this only to discover cruel games people play, all to gain some imaginary sense of power over. And then unravelling misidentified emotions. Confusing one thing for another is easy when people are quick to judge and satiated by very surface value judgements... which can lead to feeling ashamed of something I didn't do or couldn't even imagine intending. 

Jealousy isn't bad when appropriately placed with someone who might hope you do feel it occasionally. If the emotions weren't so intense. And on a good day I'm rather irate with my computer!