I've been debating about writing this post probably because I'm just so annoyed at myself, disappointed in myself and just ashamed of myself in a way to admit it. Hopefully this isn't too long a post.
I think I'll start here, so I am "plagued" in a way with intense interests and then all of a sudden, poof, lost all interest and cannot for the life of me get back into it what ever it may be. It's not like a feeling of mild fleeting interest due to loss of excitement of starting something new, but you still get on with it. It's a feeling of intense boredom and disinterest to the point where I cannot concentrate for no matter how hard I try not matter what techniques I use to try an help. I just cannot get myself to care enough.
I'm wondering if anyone here has similar experience?
Moving on to the reason why I'm writing this, I've been doing a course for software engineering and basically what I've written above has happened, as a result I've been failing I feel so bad about it I don't know what to do, I don't know how to tell my mum about it. I've started a new part time job recently and I like it, I like earning the money and I like the people but I'm not too sure how I could turn it into something I can make a career out of to live a nice life. I just feel so stuck right now I don't know what to do.
That's brings me to the title of the post, is this what life is like for us that, have this problem? Am I going to have this issue for my whole life? Not knowing what to for work or a career because I'm constantly having drastic change in interest especially in things that I would like to monetise and hopefully turn into some kind of career.
I hate being all negative and down in the dumps I'm trying to be more positive to myself and look after myself physically again by going to gym but I just have this thing hanging over me and I'm not sure what to do.
I don't expect anyone to reply to this or to offer advice I just wanted to get it out there into the aether maybe someone can tell me if they experience the same kind of thing but I don't know.
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