Stuck on a problem

your link errored out for me,,,,,, it could be  security issue

Yes I can too. I'm learning to change things round in my life and there have been a few instances where I've let it go and felt the better for it. However it takes practise.

I was actually reading this earlier today autismawarenesscentre.com/.../ and so posting it as it might be of interest. 

Until these problems are solved or have some kind of resolution, you probably won't stop attempting to problem-solve, troubleshoot, calculate or re-calculate them. 

Neurotypical individuals Lack Empathy. That's what the Actual problem is in these relationships. And also the desire to Be Empathetic, while Autistic individuals are typically over-compensating for both parties due to being falsely accused, misinterpreted, misrepresented, misjudged. This can cause 2 problems: a flood of emotional stress which clouds ones ability to think clearly On Top Of an inability to properly identify social complexities, nuances and psychological structures due to being Autistic. 

Not only do we have problems with these social nuances, but we're often not taught how to navigate them either due to communication errors between the sender and receiver or due to NT negligence and contempt. 

I discovered ages ago, in order to learn and grow as a human - regardless of age - we need a safe place with resources to learn from. The best analogy is a greenhouse. In my experience, the best place to steal time and information has always been at a library. But first I had to learn to protect myself by creating distance from these cruel humans. It can take years to learn to recognise their gaslighting, manipulations and other sociopathic behaviours. It can also take years to then learn how trust-worthy and kind people behave and communicate. Eventually, it is possible to recognise kind and ethical individuals from ones who say their ethical but merely virtue signalling and say their kind but actually manipulative. 

Sounds a bit nightmarish! I do think about all the careless ways I could die. It reminds me to be hyper vigilant about this moment. Focused. 

Are you constantly thinking of ways to destroy yourself? Like step-by-step reasons and then reasoning how it could go wrong? Resumé by Dorothy Parker is a good one.

Sorry to hear that

I am stuck on suicide thoughts. All my numerous notices for years are about this and even arrested for it and nearly killed in a cycling accident. But i was posting on here about my distress and suicide worries long before 

ah yeah, well if a boss speaks to you impolitely one time and aggressively then your gonna keep that in mind and its gonna effect your view of the guy as a potential hostile that doesnt like you.

I mean daily problems, or something that has bothered you in the day. Such as your boss, or an argument with a parent or friend

depends what the problem is. something that stays with you and changes who you are then yeah. such as my slight fear or bees or wasps due to when i was young being swarmed by a entire floating cloud of wasps that was so much of them you coudnt see through and when they engulfed you you couldnt see out of it. yeah aint getting over that easy lol came out of nowhere too which i guess adds to the fear that you may only see one but billions can just appear from nowhere off the back off that one wasp you see.