Losing the will to live

I'm bipolar,  Autistic,  ADHD and am physically weak.

A social worker gave me 14 hours a week care. I cannot find a suitable care worker.

I have virtually no one to talk to and am severely lonely and scared every day.

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  • If you have gut issues, it can lead to physical and psychological issues, as it has done for me. There are certain foods that can cause an inflammatory gut response, like gluten and dairy are common foods that can cause problems, so try to avoid them for a week and see how you feel after that. 

    Because if I accidentally eat gluten, I can become physically weak, and start having psychological issues like anxiety, and clinical depression (no motivation to eat, shower, or even to live), and if I've eaten a lot of gluten it can cause paranoia. And everything just rolls downhill after that. You can't go out to buy food because of anxiety, you can't cook food because of physical weakness, and you don't have the will to eat food because of depression and lacking the will to live. It's just a bad cycle. And the people around you might not be understanding, might shame you, and while you are struggling to take care of yourself and need help from them, they might not be so willing to help you (to put it politely), which can cause additional stress. 

    But be easy on yourself, whatever you are able to do, like if you manage to cook food and eat it, if you are able to take a shower, even while you are feeling extremely unwell, that is a triumph. I think that temporarily eliminating certain foods might be a good place to start. 

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  • If you have gut issues, it can lead to physical and psychological issues, as it has done for me. There are certain foods that can cause an inflammatory gut response, like gluten and dairy are common foods that can cause problems, so try to avoid them for a week and see how you feel after that. 

    Because if I accidentally eat gluten, I can become physically weak, and start having psychological issues like anxiety, and clinical depression (no motivation to eat, shower, or even to live), and if I've eaten a lot of gluten it can cause paranoia. And everything just rolls downhill after that. You can't go out to buy food because of anxiety, you can't cook food because of physical weakness, and you don't have the will to eat food because of depression and lacking the will to live. It's just a bad cycle. And the people around you might not be understanding, might shame you, and while you are struggling to take care of yourself and need help from them, they might not be so willing to help you (to put it politely), which can cause additional stress. 

    But be easy on yourself, whatever you are able to do, like if you manage to cook food and eat it, if you are able to take a shower, even while you are feeling extremely unwell, that is a triumph. I think that temporarily eliminating certain foods might be a good place to start. 

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