Published on 12, July, 2020
Went back to church for the first time since last March this morning. I managed to get as far as the entrance hall where I proceeded to cry through the entire service, went into complete meltdown mode.
3 people tried to talk to me but I was completely non verbal, so much so that I couldn't tell them to leave me alone. As soon as it finished I left, didn't say a single word.
So embarrassing.
I'm really sorry to hear that your return to church was such an overwhelming experience. It's totally okay to have strong emotions, and it's brave of you to share your experience here.
If you ever need support or want to talk to someone who might understand, consider checking out https://whenyouneedgod.com. They might have resources or people who can help. Remember, it's okay to take things at your own pace, and there's no need to feel embarrassed about your emotions.