i know some of these may sound stupid or silly but I don’t know what’s real anymore as I thought all these where “normal” until it has been pointed out to me the past few months. My 2 sons have been diagnosed autistic and I was surprised as they are just like I was at their age, the list below may sound silly and just be me but I would love your feedback on anything that jumps out at you
I could make a list a mile long but here are some of the main ones.
- Walking into a group of people in a room I have a weird feeling that they was talking about me beforehand or they don’t want me there.
- i don’t like mess but I can handle mess that I have created longer than other peoples.
- i ask people why they don’t do something as it seems so logical to me
- It feels when I’m around other people I put on an act but not realising I’m doing it. I feel it’s something I have done all my life, like a showman even for example smiles or compassion. I know I’m happy inside but I need to act showing it on the outside.
- Not sure how to react when people are mad angry or sad
- Can walk away from long term relationships
- Get bubbly inside when plans change
- Rather my own company
- When I have a hobby I do it 500% quickly
- Can’t hear other people when noises in background
- Some noises annoy me like loud music in the car, yet when I’m driving it’s fine
- People say I’m rude or heartless
- People say I’m in a mood when I’m not
- I do things for the sake of doing them as I should enjoy them but don’t
- Have no imagination like playing with toys as a child or playing characters with my children is really hard and forced
- I like planning everything (eg I start planing in my head packing up the caravan as soon as we arrived at the location and setup. Even if we are staying for a week)
- If I get a business idea it’s all setup that day where it takes other people weeks to do
- I think a lot about do people actually want me at an event or if they are talking about me even though I know 100% they are not
- I hate being interrupted when I’m doing something even though the thing I might be doing is important but it seems like it’s important to me at the time.
- I let people down on social events as I overthink the whole night or day
- I feel like a spoilt child if I can’t have my own way even at the age of 32 and I know I’m not spoilt.
- I have very little friends as in one or two (I don’t mean in height haha) for the reason I find it more of a hindrance to have a freind than anything else
