Published on 12, July, 2020
Now I know this sounds stupid, but I’m apprehensive about seeking a diagnosis, partly because I might be told I don’t have autism. I’m not sure where that would leave me. I guess it would just make me a bit of a weirdo, who has no real reason to find certain things so difficult.
I don’t feel 100% sure I have autism, but I’m questioning. I took the AQ test and scored 30, so not super low but not super high either. I’m not sure what the purpose to this post is, I’m just torn on what to do.
I have exactly the same feelings:) like I'm scared that I will just feel "stupid" for having these struggles and when finally everything made sense someone could tell me "no, you are wrong!" and wondering "what is it then?
Like being left with no answers to why I feel the way I feel.
I would say it's completely normal I guess to feel scared. No matter what the "result" is I think that's important that you are trying to make sense of things and find "your place in the world". You are not alone and many other feel the same way or similarly to you and you are not odd or weird:)