Published on 12, July, 2020
Now I know this sounds stupid, but I’m apprehensive about seeking a diagnosis, partly because I might be told I don’t have autism. I’m not sure where that would leave me. I guess it would just make me a bit of a weirdo, who has no real reason to find certain things so difficult.
I don’t feel 100% sure I have autism, but I’m questioning. I took the AQ test and scored 30, so not super low but not super high either. I’m not sure what the purpose to this post is, I’m just torn on what to do.
Hello Petals,
Firstly, let me say that I think Caelus gave you an excellent reply, in fact they're all good replies.
All you want to know is the truth, so if you think you may have ASD then why not request an asessment? Whatever the result is, that will be your first step towards the truth... and possibly the only step needed ... but that remains to be seen.
Do it when you feel ready, you may just 'know' when the time is right..
Ben
I wasn’t sure either so nearly 3 months ago I started to compile a list of things I avoid and my traits. I too are in the process of getting my 8yr old son an assessment.
Here’s my list (I have never shared this before)
Over sensitive
Bright sunlight
Take things literally
Get frustrated with yourself for very little
Tired in body for no reason feel exhausted
Sensitive to smells (candles and strong smells)
Forgetful
Struggle with eye contact (can’t look at myself for long)
Struggle with socialising
Everything is a job
OCD
All or nothing
Sit in garage sometimes to calm myself down
Over empathetic
Struggle thinking of words when in conv
Always thinking I don’t handle things well
Can talk very loudly and then too quietly
Don’t like people that much
Easily offended
Get very down
Speak in a monotone way
Hate putting socks on
Struggle to plan how long tasks and work take
Struggle to find a word when talking (brain doesn’t think quick enough)
Hate asking for help (guilt)
Get so fixated on tasks can block out things around me inc not eating
Don’t really enjoy going out and can’t wait to get home
Very slow at reading as I constantly go over the same thing (to try and make sense)
Multi tasking is awful and makes me really anxious
Avoid gossip and speculation
Constant need to talk about disagreements
Sulk a lot (silent treatment)
Always look grumpy to people even when happy
Sensitive to air pressure
Panic attacks
More prone to injury
Hyper empathy
It’s funny what you learn about yourself when you start digging.